Maria writes:
A couple days ago, Rick and I spoke online to a Zentangle gathering in Wales. Just before the end, one of the facilitators asked if anyone wanted to tell us how practicing the Zentangle Method had changed their life. One woman raised her hand and she told her story. She described how, after a serious accident and an extended coma, a friend gave her one of our Zentangle books and encouraged her to try it. She did. And she proceeded to tell us how tangling helped her to recover, to move through her pain, and to regain her passion for life.
I was moved to tears. I thought, if she could tell us her story, surely I should be willing to tell mine. Though my story is much different than hers, I want her to know how much she inspired me to share my story.
A few weeks ago, I was shopping for dinner guests. Just an ordinary day, nothing special. As I rounded the bend of the last aisle in the grocery store, I felt a bit fuzzy. I have never passed out in my 70+ years, so I soldiered on. Next thing I know, I am speaking to a very nice EMT, doing what seemed like 90 mph in an ambulance with questionable shock absorbers. One thing led to another, and within a few hours I had a pacemaker implanted in my chest.
I know this may sound scary and all, but getting the pacemaker didn’t bother me in the least. What really bothered me was that in the crazy kerfuffle at the super market, I injured my right arm and hand. I kept telling the EMTs and nurses and doctors that my arm was broken. It was really painful. And you know how important that arm and hand are to me!
It turned out that I did not break my arm. But in the fall, I whacked it hard enough to cause some nerve damage. When I first returned home, I couldn’t fully use either hand . . . I was told not to move my left hand much and my right (and dominant) hand hardly worked at all. Hmmmm. I sat around for a few weeks, reading and polishing up my left-handed writing and tangling. All the doctors told me that nerves heal slowly and I would eventually get my hand back . . . not to worry.
I like to think I’m a patient patient, but I gotta say, those days were long! Then, one bright sunny morning (and there weren’t many of those during that time), I awoke with a glowing attitude of gratitude. I went immediately to my studio and there, perched on my desk was a tan Opus tile. I secretly felt that Rick (with all love and inspiration) strategically placed it there, thinking it would get me to try something, anything.
So, I grabbed a few 05 and 08 Microns and “attached” a pen to my hand with my “handy” Zentangle blue-green elastic bands I always (God knows why) keep on my desk. I now believe it was part of His grand plan.
It wasn’t the perfect solution, but it was a start. The tangling was quite shaky, but consistently shaky, like I had WAY too much of Rick’s amaZing coffee. The elastic bands were uncomfortable, like using crutches when you break a leg. It was a slow process.
I worked big, which I have done in the past, and slow (something I haven’t done in the past!) in 10-15 minute intervals. I was unable to use the small graphite and chalk pencils, but I figured, one stroke at a time, right?
We have a virtual seminar coming up soon. I will decide closer to that day whether or not to draw on camera. But, my dear tanglers, I can talk. So I will accompany Rick, Martha, Molly, Julie and others in a commentary position, adding my 2 cents when inspired.
So . . . thank you all for your patience and good thoughts to keep me on the straight and narrow, or should I say, the curvy and exuberantly creative?
Yup. No mistakes.
Rick adds,
When I got to the hospital and Maria said she couldn’t move her right arm, perhaps you can imagine the thoughts and emotions that flooded through me at that time.
But, fast forward a few weeks to now and I can say that we have been granted a focused opportunity to put our Zentangle philosophy into real life practice . . . particularly “gratitude” and “Anything is possible one stroke at a time.”
Maria’s response during this saga is an inspiration. Throughout it all, I never heard her complain or give voice to any worries about the future. Perhaps she did that for the benefit of all of us around her, but then, all the more respect and admiration! She took to enthusiastically imagining all the things she could do without the full function of fine motor skills . . . like painting on big canvases which she so enjoyed when she painted the clouds for our photo booth at seminars.
And I can report that every day continues to show improvement. Maria’s response and spirit is an inspiration to us all. No matter what happens, we each always have choices of what to do next. And some of those choices are to choose to be grateful (or not) and to create something beautiful (or not).
Maria and I are so grateful for each other, for our family, for our friends in our amazing and wonderful Zentangle community . . . and for our angels.
Lynda Sherer on
Patty Duffy CZT 40 on
Oh my! Both these shared stories are inspirational! I’m so glad you were able to get the pacemaker so promptly. You never quit and that’s a shining example to us all. You rock Maria Thomas!
Sandy Kelley-Jones CZT on
Oh my! Both these shared stories are inspirational! I’m so glad you were able to get the pacemaker so promptly. You never quit and that’s a shining example to us all. You rock Maria Thomas!
Sandy Kelley-Jones CZT on
Your sharing touched me deeply! Thank you for risking to do so! Zentangle has over and over helped me and others I work with to heal and trust its philosophy of one stroke at a time.
May you continue to heal. Wishing you peace!
Martha Fauteux on
Maria – Thank you so much for sharing your story, your processes, your inspiration and your positivity. You and Rick bring so much more than your art to the practice of Zentangle and your story is just such an example. Your humor is just a bonus. This past year I had both carpal tunnel and trigger thumb surgery on my right dominant hand. It’s hard to not overdo using your hand/arm but nerve damage has its own timetable and you do definitely do not want to aggravate the healing! But you will get there! Bonus: good time to develop new triple Ps (plans, projects and patterns)! Looking forward to your healing.
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Ikuko Noiri on
Thank you for sharing your story, Maria. Yes, everything is possible ‘one step at a time.’
I found the picture of your hand wrapped with the elastic band to be useful. I hadn’t been tangling as much as I had been previously since I developed some shakiness and neuropathy in my hands. Looking forward to digging in to tangling again with a steadier hand.
Linda Dochter on
Maria, when i heard the news of your injury it was like a shock one gets when a family member and/or close friend is ill. You naturally want to help and protect them because of all the wonderful things they provided you. I can’t begin to tell you all the wonderful things you provided to me personally through Zentangle. All i can say is that you have a caring community who wants the best for you and your health is the top priority. We are all here for you with our prayers and support.
Matt Wieczkowski on
Sending all kinds of bright love and hugs your way, Maria. So much love.
Becky Ruiz Jenab on
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Roslyn Badcock on
Thank you for sharing your story Maria.
May you go from strength to strength.
Zentangle has been my saving Grace too on so many levels.
I feel it has changed my life immensely.
Terry on
I was very surprised and concerned when I read this blog. I’m so very happy to hear that you are improving and have found a ‘work around’ in which to enjoy your art. I wish you God’s Richest Blessings in your recovery and look forward to seeing you on the ‘screen’ once again!
Dianne Riva Cambrin on
Wishing you well Maria! Thank you for sharing this story. It is as uplifting and inspiring as your art. One stroke at a time and wonders happen every time. Grateful for this reminder. Thinking of you all at ZTHQ and sending love and healing vibes.
Plus, look at this community! So special!!
Juliet on
Oh my, what a story. I never knew until I read Joanna’s post.
What an inspiration, and grateful that you are doing well. A pacemaker, goodness. I does sound scary though.
Love from NL
Hilde
Hilde van Ginhoven on
R to hank you both for sharing your story. I had a mental setback in May and have a really had time getting back into my daily Zentangle routine This story has given me the extra courage to try again 💕💕💕
Karen Haggblad on
Prayers for complete healing. Thank you for sharing your story. Zentangle has touched so many lives and will continue to do so.
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Donna on
Thank you Maria for sharing your story and hope that you are continuing to recover. 🥰
I wanted to tell everyone a little bit more about the tangler and CZT who inspired you.
On the penultimate evening of the recent Zenjo Retreat, in Wales, I had arranged a surprise guest appearance and had kept this secret from everyone until the very last second when we connected the video screen and Maria Thomas & Rick Roberts, joined us, live, in Wales from their home in Massachusetts.
There was a collective gasp of surprise and joy from all the retreat participants and then a fun 30 mins of conversation with Maria & Rick.
Towards the end my friend and colleague, Darcy Ellarby CZT, asked if anyone wanted to share their story of how Zentangle had changed their life.
Immediately Tracy Hough Czt, from the UK, put up her hand. She told her story and brought many of us, including Maria, to tears.
I have known Tracy for almost 3 years. She took my introduction to Zentangle course and then became a regular member of Zenjo Tangle Club, eventually attending the online seminar and becoming a CZT.
10 years ago Tracy had a motorcycle accident in which she suffered a serious leg injury. She was only 20 years old and this injury changed what she could do and left her in constant, disabling pain. She has struggled with this pain and being able to have the energy to do things she enjoys.
I have watched Tracy embrace Zentangle and seen how it has made such a positive impact upon her life….way beyond being creative.
I knew that coming to the Zenjo Retreat was a big step for her, particularly as she still copes with the pain and exhaustion on a daily basis, but an amazing thing happened!
This is what she says:
“I honestly feel like a different person coming away from the retreat, and for the first time in 10 years (in October) I feel like I’ve found myself again after my accident. I was able to socialize without feeling crowded & having flashbacks (from all the people crowding me at the accident) I have not felt more my self in 10 years. I thought I would spend days recovering in bed in pain and I DIDN’t. And after sharing my story with you all, and inspiring Maria of all people, I’m honoured. If I can enhance one other person’s life with Zentangle I feel like I’ve achieved my goal.
Thank you again to Darcy Ellarby And Joanna Quincey for arranging the retreat and all my fellow Tanglers who accompanied me and made that possible. You will all have a special place in my heart.”
I am very proud of Tracy! She has a whole world of opportunities and joy out there. I can’t wait to see what she does next.
🥰💞
Joanna Quincey - Zenjo on